Introducing Jessica Marie!

Hello everyone!! My name is Jessica, I am married to a wonderful husband and we have a beautiful 3 year old daughter, and a spunky 6 year old min pin. My husband and I have been together for 9 years and just celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary! I was fortunate enough to be able to stay home with my daughter for the first two years of her life. I just went back to work about 5 months ago part time. I get the best of both worlds because I am able to get out of the house a few days a week, but I also get to stay very involved in her life by staying home 4 days a week. I haven't decided yet if I will continue to work part time when we have another child or stay home again. I guess we'll see when it happens and how we are finaincially! May marked 2 years that we have been trying to conceive our second child. We want 3 or 4 children and were hoping that they would all be around 2 years apart. Doesn't look like that is going to happen! Even if we got pregnant right now she would almost be 4 when the baby was born. Oh well, God has a different plan for us!

I am starting this blog to share my thoughts, opinions and stories with others as well as getting advice from others. I have been recently diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, or PTSD, because of the child abuse I received throughout my entire childhood. The child abuse I suffered from was physical abuse, sexual abuse and mental abuse. I have completely shut out everything that has happened to me, as if I closed the door to that part of my memory and never reopened it, not even a crack. When I had my daughter I felt like someone broke down that door and I was overwhelmed with terrible memories. I never talk about it though, to anyone, not even my husband. Every once in awhile something will remind me of something from my childhood that I might share, but very rarely I share. I'm hoping by sharing some of this I will get some self healing. Hopefully, I will feel a sense of relief and weight lifted off of me. I also hope that my story will help others. I hope that it will help other child abuse survivors to know they are not alone. For so many years I thought I was the only one that had been a victim of child abuse. I also hope that this story will reach anyone that might think they see signs of child abuse and intervene. Look for my story to be posted some time in the near future. It is going to take me awhile to write and also a lot of courage because I've never shared my story before. I also plan on writing a lot about my daily life of being a wife, mother, co-worker, sister, friend and so much more! I also hope to meet new people so be sure to contact me through email or comments. If you ever want any advice or want me to discuss a topic be sure to let me know! Also, leave comments I love to hear from readers!!