Getting Laid Off

Wow! It's been awhile since I have written anything! I'm ready to get back on the computer and start writing again. Now, more than ever I could use the outlet. I just got laid off from my job about 3 weeks ago. I never imagined the emotional roller coaster that would come with it. I had worked in a smaller office of a big local chain of doctors. I was 2 months shy of my 5 year anniversary and let go like a nameless number in a large corporation. It came as a huge surprise because I had been there longer than almost every other employee, never had any kind of disciplinary action and there wasn't any notification that they were going to be laying any employees off. I know the company is in financial distress, but I felt secure because I know that I am a better employee than the other people in my same field. However, since I was there the longest I did make the most money which I feel had a huge role in me being laid off.

The worst part of it though is losing the people I worked with. There was a group of 6 of us who all started within 2 months of each other and we were all close in age, 4 of us had our first child within a year so we were there for each other through the births, birthday parties, wedding, funerals and many other personal problems we were going through. They were such a support system and like family to me. When I was let go, everyone but one person stopped talking to me. That really broke my heart because I truly loved these women and would of done anything for them.

So, now I'm part of the unemployed epidemic that is spreading in this country and hardly anyone in the city I live in is hiring. I'm thinking about possibly going back to school. Someone told me they thought I could get grants for being laid off that will help pay for school. I'll have to check into that soon. For now I'm spending time with my daughter and enjoying the nicer weather. Also, as an adult how often do we get to take a couple months off?!

My Vacation From Work

This week has been a great week! One of the Doctors was out this week and his nurse was looking for hours, so I gladly gave up mine. She really had to twist my arm for this favor! I only had to work on Monday and the rest of the week was mine to enjoy. My husband took Tuesday and Wednesday off to spend time with us. We didn't really do anything, went to the Zoo one day, shopping a couple of days and the pool everyday. My daughter begged to go to the water park everyday so of course I gave in. Although I couldn't go today. I'm extremely pale. I don't tan at all, I just burn, and every once in awhile I will turn a darker shade of white. So yesterday we were only going to stay at the water park for an hour so I didn't put any sunblock on myself. I don't know what I was thinking. I slathered sunblock all over her, but decided not to put it on myself. I've always gotten sun burnt very easily, but I guess I thought maybe this summer will be different. Maybe this summer I will turn that golden sun kissed brown that I've only dreamed about... WAKE UP JESSICA!!!! Do you think that happened? Of course not! In fact, that hour we were at the pool I got so sun burnt I couldn't even lay on my back last night. So, needless to say I didn't get out in the sun today. My daughter on the other hand doesn't burn at all. She turns a beautiful tan first time she's out in the sun. I'm a bit jealous!

I really think this week has done me good. Usually when I have vacation scheduled we go on an adventure out of town and are really busy being tourist, but I think this has been the most relaxing vacation ever. I made a list of things around the house that I wanted to get done, like paint my daughter's room and organize the storage room. But I didn't do a thing on it. I just spent quality time with my daughter and husband. I would highly recommend a vacation from work to everyone. Things at work can get stressful at times and even going away for a vacation can be stressful. This has been a very stress free week that I hate to see end!

A Case of the Monday's

It was such a Monday today. For some reason I just couldn't get going at work. Ever have those days? Not only could I not get going, I was in a grumpy mood too! Last night I got a text from my boss at around 9:30 telling me to "plan" on working with one of the Doctor's because his assistant will be sick today. She didn't even ask, just told me to 'plan' on it. Possibly the start of my bad mood?! What's funny is, on my way to work today I seen the girl that was too sick to make it in today driving down the street! lol! I'm always getting pulled away from my position to fill in for some one else. On one hand it's nice to get out of the normal routine, but on the other hand I get so far behind that it's hard to catch up. Everyone always expects me to help them out, but no one ever wants to fill in for me when I need to be out. I am the only one of the only one's in the office cross trained in all the positions, so I'm last on the priority list as far as time off goes. I'm getting really bitter towards that place! Can you tell?

I've been wanting to find a new job, but it's really hard to find anything in my community right now. I live in a mid-size city that has a lot of large plants in it and they are all laying off right now. In the last 2 months over 5,000 people have been laid off and one of the companies just announced another 1,400 will be laid off in the next month. That has had a whirl wind effect on our community. Mom and Pop stores are constantly closing and other smaller companies are having to lay off because no one has any money to spend. I've never seen the economy like this before. Now is definitely not the time to make a job change. Not only will I have 6,000 other people to compete with for a job, but if I did get lucky enough to get one then I would be at the bottom of the barrel. Then, what if that company starts taking a loss, where are they going to look to cut costs? The bottom of the barrel. I've been thinking about going back to school. I'm not really sure what I would want to major in, but at least when I am done raising my child(ren) I will have a career to start in. Who knows what I will do! Well, I think that is enough ranting for one night! Hopefully, tomorrow will be better. I don't work tomorrow, so that is a start! Thanks for listening computer.